Friday, June 13, 2008

OK, OK already...

So two incidences happened this week that are finally making me say "enough already". One is the realization that it's been so long between weigh ins that I'm at the point of having to re-enroll, and the other is I'm only just starting to not feel overfull for the first time in 2 days. Yes, I woke up feeling full yesterday morning from the prior night (and I think it was the cookies I baked at 10 PM that put me over the hump), and I remained feeling full all day. Now I actually think it was some kind of tummy bug, because really, I didn't eat much yesterday at all. But still. I think I'm at a turning point.

When I was first laid off, I thought wouldn't it be cool if I lost weight and got a job before my severance pay expired. OK, those two things are not related, per se, but both would be cool things, positives resulting from a negative experience. Instead, however, I am gaining weight, haven't exercised much at all, and have not had much interest from my resume submissions at all. It's hard for me to be positive in the best of circumstances. Add a bit of a challenge and it becomes really impossible to be positive.

On the other hand, I have an opportunity to do some forms for a recruiter. If I do a good job, that could net me some kind of positive action on the job front. This week was bad in that I had my daughter home from school, so I was not able to make my usual support/resume groups. Next week I will make a game plan. I will have at least 2 ego boosting events: the meeting about forms and a volunteer banquet plus baby sitting from sister, who is usually good for an ego stroke.

So two things I can do to help me get back on the wagon: don't bring any trigger foods home, and don't make any more cakes!