There are times that I wish I were a guy...

Guys just seem to have a healthier attitude about their self-image (or perhaps they're just more deluded than chicks are). You just see a lot of guys going around who are...chubby and just don't seem to care or notice. Not fitting in that shirt? Who cares, or conversely, just buy a bigger size. Today while I was shopping I sure wished I had more of a guy's attitude about the whole thing.

I was on the hunt for a new jacket to wear with my current interview outfits. I just wanted a simple black jacket that was a bit classier than a blazer, something a bit fitted but buttonable, and nothing too trendy or fussy. You would think that I'm asking for a lot considering the crap that is out there! I felt like I was in an episode of "I Love Lucy" where Lucy is wearing maternity swing tops. Lots of poofy sleeves and not fitted lines and short or three-quarter sleeves. Well, actually I started to like the 3/4 sleeves: my best interview dress is short sleeved, so I can get away with that. Other ugly trends: belted jackets, heavy jackets made of really textured wool.

One problem I was having was, bluntly enough, my boobs. OK, two problems, if you must get all picky on me. Somehow I have managed to still fit in my current size even though I'm at my high weight. Usually I would be an 18 at this weight. Kind of weird, actually. So trendy clothing doesn't come in this size, normally. Ann Taylor tops out at 14. Nordstrom's fancy department topped out at 12. Not wanting to get stuck in the jackets, I didn't even bother trying on anything under a 14. I ended up with a very comfortable one button black jacket (size 16) on sale for well under $100. Considering the crap I saw for upwards of $500, not a bad deal at all. It's kind of a bolero style with full length sleeves and a crepey texture to it. Nice.

Anyway, after an afternoon of a lot of rejects and a lot of peering at myself in mirrors, you would expect some kind of fallout, but no. I'm doing OK. No treats were purchased on the way out of the mall, not even a little one. Yay me!